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The missing days

Thursday & Friday & Saturday

Thursday i stayed over at Veron's house! Had a great time with them, hearing ghost stories, joking around, playing mahjong. I felt so safe among them, like i could really just be myself. Strangely enough, i felt... protected. cant explain it.

woke up friday morning to a house full of sleeping people. Class ppl were sleeping, (except yongda who mysteriously vanished in the middle of the night) and downstairs veron's cousin's friends were sprawled over the furniture. Had intended to go to church, but due to various circumstances, managed to miss it altogether, ended up staying at veron's till 4pm.

the moment i got home, i ate ice cream. heh. then i fell asleep, almost violently. so i woke up late for leaders dinner at kel's. Got there all bleary-eyed and messy haired. Ivin had a challenging message for us. It's time for a change, people are starting to sense it in the air, its time for us to move out of our comfort zones, remove whatever it is that is holding us back. I think i know what's holding me back... but... im not telling you.

Saturday morning breakfast with daddy and darryl at coronation. bleh, lousiest saturday morning breakfast so far. Ate lemon chicken rice cos darryl loves it, thought it would be good. it was pathetic... ickypoo.

later in the day, went for a job interview for sales assistant at gramophone. Thought it would be the funkiest job ever, music all day, with a pay of $1200. (!!! compared to what im earning now... thats mindblowing!!!) interviews only started at 3 but i decided that BAY could wait. when i got there, there was an INCREDIBLY long queue. ARGH. waited for over an hour in line. but the interview went pretty well, it was an interesting one, i'll tell you if you ask me. but i dont think i'll take the job, it wont leave me any time for BAY stuff.

Feeling guilty about being late so i cabbed down. $8.60. ?!!?!? only stayed for a while then went off for deep purple concert.

it was a pretty good concert, i had fun. well... not really. but i wont elaborate. i'd like to keep my personal issues personal.

the band was great! but the opening band sucked... and the technical difficulties were a real mood crasher. i reckon we stood a little too near the front cos my ears are STILL ringing. man i hope this isnt permanent.

and for the third night in a row, i knocked out the moment i hit the bed.
and thats why we have the missing days, days i didnt blog.

actually, lots of stuff happened in between, important stuff that might just shock you to know. but i cant tell you. but the very fact that i'm posting this way... seems to me like a cry for help.

there i go, psychoanalysing myself again.

i just need someone to talk to.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:44 AM